I read this one long time ago, you can't skip chapters, that's how life works. You have to read every line and meet every characters. You won't enjoy all of it. Hell,

Some chapters will make you cry for weeks. You read things you don't want to read, you will have moments when you don't want the pages to end. But you have to keep going, stories keep the world revolving.

Life to me had always felt like a burden i had to bear. Something heavy and murky that made waking up difficult and falling asleep a little but scary. I am unaware what it felt like to care for someone so much.

I used to be fine when I was alone. I thought having him beside me will make feel like less lonely but here I am again feeling lonely and alone. The one time he wasn't brutally honest with me and I assumed the feelings I saw him in his eyes was love.

My desperate desire to avoid pain and discomfort led to me feeling the worst pain and discomfort of my life and It trapped me inside.

So Welcome to the hell of my life where I am nothing but a choice for everyone's Life. I am Y/n, I am you and you are me and this story where you live my life.

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The night is cold,dark and the rainy breeze slowly hitting through the car window where his one hand clutch on the steering wheel and other one on my thigh caressing slightly.

Jungkook, most successful and powerful businessman in whole Asia, the CEO of Jeon corporation and I am his secretary. Apart from business, we are friends from our school times.

I leaned over and kissed him on his cheeks and then I rested my head on his shoulder. But suddenly he stopped his car and gestured me to sat on his laps.

I sat on his lap, he slid his hands on my waist and kissed the top of my head. I couldn't help but smile at him, loving how beautiful he was, how beautiful he made me feel.

His thumb dug into the soft place between my jaw and ear, placing one more kiss on my cheek. My eyes drifted to his lips which were pink and glossy.

His finger pressing against my lips, sliding down to my Jaw and neck. I can feel my body heating up. His eyes follows the tip of his finger as it keep moving, trailing down to my chest, down, down, to my stomach.

He lightly traces my stomach over the top of my shirt until his hand meet my waist. Both of his hands grip on my hips and pulled me forward.

"I have been wanting to kiss you since you walked through my cabin in the morning"

He slammed his lips over mine, his kiss is slow yet passionate. Sliping his tongue into my mouth, he started exploring every inch of it. My fingers run over the muscles of his chest and shoulder.

"You want to get ruined by me today" He turned his head the other way and started deepening the kiss. He pressed his lips on my neck trailing down to my shoulder, I can feel his warm breath whenever he exhaled on my skin and my eyes closed.

But suddenly my mind drifted into something,

"Wow, you still thinking that you can make me leave, I am a monster you know"

My eyes shut open, my legs started shivering. Some kind of sick desire warring with a fear in my chest.

"And You still think that, he will love you, No, Never.....if you don't believe me see this"

I placed my both hands on his chest slightly pushed him making him groaning with annoyance. I looked into his eyes,

"Jungkook I need to ask you something?"

"Tell me, what is that?"

"JUNGKOOK LET'S GET MARRIED"

"Y/N, WHAT ARE YOU SAYING WE ARE FRIENDS?"

"SO WHAT? FRIENDS CAN'T MARRY?"

"THAT'S NOT THE THING I AM TELLING"

"THEN WHAT?"

"I ALREADY LOVE SOMEONE" my heart freeze, he love someone else. Why didn't he told me then. My hope shattered into millions of pieces.

"SO YOU ARE REJECTING ME?"

"I AM SORRY" my whole body turned numb, I let my eyes continued bored into his but I saw him averted his eyes from me.

"WHAT ABOUT MY HEART THEN?"